Bill Kaulitz updated

He is in a dark place. I just looked into him more deep recently. I would just glance, but this is more thorough.

He is at a crossroads. He wants the love from a woman, but is curious about men. On the fence. He has been intimately involved with a man, but he didn't fully give in to the relationship. They were close but he always held back.

He is too troubled for a soulmate. He would not be able to provide the stability she is wanting or requiring. He is not in a healthy environment. He has regrets. He gets caught up in the net of it.

His heart is hurting. He knows he will not have a soulmate this life. He knows his choices have led to that. He is very upset.

He may be friends with his soulmate. He knows they can be. He is going to be tormented with just the friendship.

He is very lost. He doesn't know what he can do. It keeps him up at night.
There are many regrets.

It is the price of fame. It is so easy to be swayed.

Right now, it is like he is feeling tortured.


Many times the universe intervened and stopped a meeting from happening. Neither were ready. I feel like a recent meeting was cut off at the last minute. There's always an obstacle.

She is growing in a more positive direction than he is. I feel she is not interested any longer. The universe has now changed her path. I feel she has another man on the horizon for her. She's done waiting.

I honestly feel like she no longer cares. The idea of soulmates and true love. She doesn't care about it anymore. I feel like she is more determined in bettering her life, and will do it independently. She is going to be pleasantly surprised by this man that is in her future. This one will probably be the one she settles down with. She is going to be happy. She is more positive, so she is attracting that.

He is feeling very empty. He is unhappy. Behind the closed doors. He has eyes on him, and so he tries to hide it. I'm not seeing a great love in his life. It is very sad, because it is what he wanted so badly. He just swayed from that path. Went too far.

I feel sorry, but choices were made. No one forces you to do anything. I believe that. If you truly wanted, you could say no. Consequences of choice. Hard lesson to learn. This is one that will affect the rest of his life.

He may eventually meet her down the road, but I only see friendship now. I don't see a way to repair these choices.

It's not just his choices. She made some as well. She made a choice in her career that will not lead her to him as quickly.

Not fully his fault.

They're growing in different directions.

NEW tumblr

I have a new Tumblr account. I can't access my old one. So you can find me, and chat with me on there! I'll try to be on it often. Check it out often atleast.

BrillianPassions

is what it is called :)
http://brilliantpassions.tumblr.com/

update

My life is full and crazy at the moment. A lot personally is going on for me. I'm on bit of a hiatus, recovering. I feel like I can finally catch my breath.

I was just dealing with a lot. Plus work life is hectic as well.

I will be back! Don't worry. I haven't forgotten anyone :)


Gena.

nonsense

Sometimes people say things because they were not given a choice. Sometimes people follow each other on social media as a way to hold onto what is no longer. Following on social media means jack shit. I'm friends with people on Facebook I haven't spoke to in like, five years. It means nothing.

The kinship that once was is no longer there. People learn from the past mistakes. Give them the benefit of the doubt that they are not that stupid. Image was tarnished. Not interested. No going back. Someone new will come along. Someone beautiful inside and out. It will work itself out. Leave it alone. It shouldn't matter anyway.

Few emails now answered LOL.

Open letter to the Cavillry.

Okay. To put it bluntly. I'm getting bullied. There's no other word for it.

I'm getting emails from a select few. Calling me a Troll. And a Coward. And a few words that probably isn't suitable even for the internet.

First off, Fuck you :)

Secondly, Get bent :)

Let me address a few accusations I have been receiving. I sure as fuck don't ship myself with your precious Superman. Fuck that. He's not a terrible guy, but just not my flavor of wine. So, get that idea out of your pretty little skulls, ok? I didn't even know who he was until I was requested to do a reading for him.

Here's a few facts as why I don't. For one, I don't match the description I gave AT ALL. I'm very short. I'm on the blonder side, and I have blue eyes. I'm also from FRANCE. That's my citizenship. Yes, I have lived in Canada. And when I first made this blog eons ago, I HAD been living in Quebec. But I'm not Canadian. and I'm not American. So I'm out of the running. So I'm not really sure how the fuck you got that idea. I now get why teachers ask students to show their work. They want to know where students go dumb. So please, show me your work. Show me how you got to that conclusion. :)

I have also been in a relationship for over a year, not that that is any of your concern. So, why do I need to obsess over some guy who I clearly, would never have a chance of even meeting? Nevermind actually hooking up with.

And it has been brought to my attention another psychic online did a reading on Henry. So now I'm also being accused of being that psychic as well. I really don't have the time, nor the desire to even want to interact with the lot of you even on a bigger scale than I have with my own accounts. Having two, therefore double, is very unappealing.

So I dearly hope you have left that one alone and haven't been throwing your crazy theories their way. If so, you need to take a seat and re-evaluate yourself.

I wasn't 'running for the hills'. I have enough drama going on in my personal life. Right now, my life is fucked basically. So when I decide to check in, and see a blow up that somehow led to me? I don't need the added drama. I don't need accusations thrown my way, I don't need the added drama and I sure as fuck don't need some spineless bullies sending me fucked up, senseless emails. Like, logic is clearly not a part of your life. And you were clearly looking to start said blow up. Because if you had an couth, you could have sent me a private message. But we woman have a need to stir up drama. Why take the high road and directly confront someone private? It's much easier to do it publically yes? I don't even know who started it, nor do I care. But that is my thoughts on that.

If you don't believe me, that's fan-fucking-tastic. I'm not going to lose any sleep over it LOLOL. I have REPEATEDLY stated that. Believe me if you wish. Or don't. That is up to you. Yet, somehow, people get butthurt and shit hits the fan regardless.

So I backed out, hoping the drama would be left behind. I wasn't scared, I wasn't being 'cowardly' as some of you "eloquently" put it. I just did not want to be subjected to the drama anymore. I don't need any extra doses. Like I said, my life has my 'drama' quota filled.

I admit, I may have over reacted. My emotions have been running a little haywire lately. My temper is short. So I could have over-reacted. I will concede to that.

That does not give you the right to fucking harass me though. Like, what even for? What is the point? What are you hoping to get out of it? You're just making yourselves out to be a couple of asswipes.

And as for being a "Troll"? Yes, you got me there! I TOTALLY decided one day to troll the Superman fandom. Because I don't have a life. Because I'm a pathetic human being, like some of you have said LOLOL. You got me! :D

I chose the 'Cavillry' (Clever) fandom OUT OF ALL THE OTHER POSSIBLE ONES ON THE INTERNET. Specially chose it. Just to fuck with you all. Because you're that special :). Like, I haven't been making blog posts for a few years now. Nope. Decide to pop up RIGHT NOW just to fuck with you.

I'm a Troll. Yep. I am. I proudly shout it from the rooftops

Get real. You few creeps need to get a few doses of reality. It's honestly so sad, how logic, reality and common sense is not a part of your lives. I actually feel a little sad for you. Have a bench, would you?

Am I being a bitch? YES. Do I care? NO LOLOL

Because this is NOTHING compared to some of the hate I'm getting from a select few. Emails, and even a few Facebook messages. I have a feeling there's only a few, but made an extra email just to send me a few extra doses of hate. Good for you! LOL

The only one you're really impacting with your hate is yourself my lovelies! You're the ones feeling that way after all. You are causing me great irritation, and frustration, I give you that. But really, this is me venting, and I know I'll be sleeping like a baby tonight. Once I get this out, I'll feel better, and I guarantee you, I will be over this by tomorrow night LOLOL.

I hope you get the help you obviously need, And that in the future you get healthy. Otherwise, your futures are not going to be the best with the vibration you are running at. Work on yourselves. And leave me alone from here on out. Otherwise I WILL be getting into contact with authorities to see what action can be taken.

Giving you fair warning.

Jai Courtney

He is a man with dashing good looks and charm.

He has been in the entertainment industry for quite some time now. In front of flashing bulbs and recording lenses. He got his start on the runway and his good looks got him on movie sets. He is not a big time actor as of yet. His moment is coming around the corner.

Women find his physique, looks and accent irresistible. He works out in order to stay in shape and does care about his appearance. Unlike some big name 'buffy men' who like the relaxed look, Jai likes to look good while working out.

He comes across as arrogant at times. He loves "Jai". Maybe a little too much at times. He knows the right moments to be charming and not totally see the arrogance.

Right now, he does have a companion.

Done. Short and Sweet. Not much needed to be said about him.

Might be a message for you.

Have you ever seen a post, or a picture of a stranger online, and your heart just sort of 'fluttered'?

Not because they were a celebrity and you were like, 'Hot damn!".

But because they kind of took your breathe away, and your heart just...fluttered.

I would pay attention if that ever happened to me. (It hasn't) but if it ever happens to you, just pay attention. Take a risk, send that person a message.

The universe has a unique way of sending us messages.

I know this has happened to a few of my bloggers. People who check up on my blog, and have read it. One in particular is coming into mind. And all I have to say to you is, find that person, and talk to them. Take the risk. What the hell, why not? It would do you good. You don't really have to worry about it having a negative affect. The most you would do is surprise the hell outta them. This person will pop up again, keep an eye out. They're being guided to you now. (Sooner than I thought)

People catch our eyes. All the time. Everyday we walk by people, come across people and we will take a second look. It's just human nature. BUT! if it makes your heart flutter, it's a deeper meaning. 9/10 times it always leads to something deeper.

Just something to be aware of. For everyone. Just take the risk, and go for it.

It happens to lots of people. Which isn't surprising. The internet is vast. And I've had people ask me about this before in the past. To them, they have described it as "Love at first sight". I wouldn't go as far as calling it that, it's not quite that. It's more of a pull, and an attraction. Universe letting you know, this, pay attention to this person. Lot's of people ignore it, or get scared of it, and let a good thing pass them by. Please stop LOL.

Just a post for all of you, but also one in particular, I'm supposed to let you know LOL. Read between the lines, and look for clues. You will know it's for you.

I have to keep things confidential, and I just can't try calling a person out. Hopefully all of you understand. If you're not sure, shoot me an email. If you are, do your own thing LOL

Have a good day, and hopefully you all have a good day.

I also haven't forgotten about my requests. I've just been busy, and this apparently took importance.

I'll update on those when I have a breather LOL