My past and my integrity.

I've had very good friends, or at the least, people who I thought were friends, go behind my back and make trouble for me. It was actually very traumatizing for me. It was a very bad situation, that made me very depressed and somewhat suicidal. I had thought about it.

So when there is behavior that is somewhat "back stabbing" behavior, I DO get offended real quick. It triggers those feelings and memories for me. I've tried working past it, and I have kinda somewhat, possibly LOL.

It's hurtful.

Be straight forward with someone. I will have so much more respect for you if you do. Even if it's negative. But if you're two faced, my respect for you goes straight down the drain, and I usually stop liking you, and want nothing to do with you. Because that says enough about a persons character, and I want nothing to do with you.

Like with my readings for instance, if you are upfront, and say, "Hey, I don't know if I really believe this. How can someone know the future?" or something like that. At least in a respectful manner, I will still respect you greatly. Like if I can talk about it with someone, I'm usually quite happy and don't get offended. Because I understand. I truly do.

How is it possible for me to know all this? Where DO I get my information?

It literally seems like thin air for people.

I totally understand skeptics, and I respect them when they are upfront with me.

But if you come to me, pretending to believe me, asking questions, seeming to get me, then go behind my back, somewhat slandering me, I kind of view it like "back stabbing" behavior. I don't really care if you don't believe me. Not everyone does. I've gained a thick skin in that aspect. I'm used to it.

You don't believe me, you don't believe me. I can't do much to change that, nor do I care to. It's your opinion, and you are entitled to it, and I respect that.

But be upfront about it, in a respectful manner. I think I deserve that courtesy, instead of you being disrespectful, and going behind my back, insulting my integrity.

How would you like it if the roles were reversed?

It's hurtful. It is. I do have past trauma regarding it, and I totally know it contributes to my views.

It's different when I have never spoken to a person, and they tell people "I don't think I believe her." That's fine. I get that. But if I've talked to you before, and answered your questions, and just plain interacted with you, we have broken past that wall.

I may seem butthurt. And hell, I am LOL

Its just hurtful, and not nice behaviour. But hey, what people say and do, says more about them than it does about you.

Be respectful, and upfront. If you have questions, or don't understand something, just ASK, instead of getting all knotted up and spreading negativity. I don't mind clarifying things if you don't understand. I don't mind answering questions.

Just be respectful and positive. That is all I ask.


Thank you.