Learn a little about me

Here is me exposing everything, and being 100% honest.

I was born in France, but raised in Wales for most of my childhood. Swansea to be exact. Not going to lie, my accent is pretty awesome LOL. It's mostly welsh, but slightly different.

I was raised in a strict catholic home. Growing up, my mother and I were at odds. Never really got along. My father was the one I considered my parent, but he was always busy with work.

I've lived in Quebec, Canada for over a year, then we moved down to the United States. We were in Louisiana then moved to Nevada. My father moved lots because of his work, so we went with him. When they went back to France, I chose to stay behind in America. I was old enough, and I had just finished schooling to be a hair stylist. My mother never approved of that. To her, that was not a true education LOL.

I tried the whole college thing, it's just not for me.

I don't know if it was a good idea for me to stay behind. I was very young, across an ocean from my parents. I got into trouble. I became a partier. I honestly went out about four nights a week. Whether it be clubs, or friends places. I was in an unhealthy group of people. My way of life was bad.

I made the decision to try to be a better person. I was doing good, but then my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. I went home for the summer after she was diagnosed. We got along better than ever, but it still wasn't perfect. We still wanted to ring each others necks.

They wanted me to stay, but I chose to go back to America. America had become my home.

That was the last time I ever saw my mother. She passed away a few months after. We knew it was coming, it had gotten bad. They tried talking me into going back again to say good bye. I didn't. I'm not sure if I regret it. I know they were all angry with me, especially my little sister. (I have a brat sister, by the way). I did go for the funeral, and that had been a tense affair. No one was happy with me.

This visit ended up being the last time I physically saw my father. He died of a massive heart attack half a year later. Within a year I lost both my parents, then came into custody of my younger sister. I made the decision she was going to come back with me to the United States.

In a way, I all of a sudden became a parent. Even though she is my little sister, I am also mom and dad to that girl. And it's hard. I try not to complain, but some days are harder than others. She doesn't make it easy. Part of me realizes, she lost both parents, one right after the other. But in the same breathe, so did I.

I have to keep such a close eye on her, because she's trying to get into trouble. She's also at that age where she's just an ass LOL. I'm about ready to pull my hair out. (her's too)

So that's where I am now.

And personality wise. My friends say I'm sugar coated razor blades. I usually laugh when I hear that. But I also realize it's not exactly a good thing.

I can come across as hard-core callous. I don't mince my words.

I'm selfish. I can be shallow. Appearance is so important to me. Only me. I don't care how others look. But I personally, have to be looking good all the time. People say I'm overdone, but that's just me, and what I feel good in. Le meh.

I'm also an asshole. I can totally admit that. I can be such a huge asshole. (but can't anyone).

I can admit, drama amuses me. I don't always encourage it, but I also don't discourage it. I usually sit back, watch and laugh. Does that make me an ass? most likely.

I can get quite nasty when provoked. Especially when someone is lying, and I know. It's like I go from zero to one hundred REAL QUICK.

But in my defense (no matter how petty), I'm 5'1 on a good day. I need to be feisty! Otherwise I'd get walked all over LOL.

I'm like a Chihuahua :P.

I can own up to my uglier qualities.

But I have some good too. I love chatting to be people. I have no problem striking up a conversation with a stranger. I do it all the time. I've literally gone to Starbucks, and sat with a random person and walked away with a new friend LOL.

I will always find something I find beautiful on a person, whether it be their eyes, complexion, anything really, and compliment them on it. Everyone needs a genuine compliment ok LOL.

I genuinely like helping people. I'm trying to stop sticking my nose in peoples business. I needs LOTS of work on that, but I'm trying LOL.

When people message me, I DO keep it confidential. You can rely on me to keep my mouth shut in that regards. I may seem like a shit disturber at times, but I like to think I'm reliable in that sense.

I like knowing people can trust me.

I have literally offered people, who were afraid for some reason, that I would post their readings as 'proof' that I was accurate, to sign a confidentiality clause. I offered to sign paper work, permitting them to sue me up the ying yang, so they could trust me. And I did it LOL.

That's one thing I really pride myself on. If people come to me in confidence, I can keep it hush hush.

I'm not perfect. I'm far from perfect. But I know I'm not a horrible person. I'm on my way to trying to be a better me.

Saying that, if anyone just needs to talk, I don't mind listening. Shoot me an email @ one.chance.in.the,starz@hotmail.com

:)

And that is me.