My reality and opinion

Okay. So this is me coming out and just telling you what is what.

My name is Gena. I was born in France but was raised all over because of my fathers work. I spent a large amount of time in Swansea, Wales. I have lived in Canada in the province of Quebec when I was younger. It was only a few months before we moved to America to New Orleans. Right now I work as a hair stylist. I'm hoping to be a color master. I love working with colors.

When I introduce myself I do out Gina because it's just the English way I my name. My actual name is. Pronounced weird. So Gina just simplifies it.

It's only been a few years I've been actively doing "psychic" stuff. I've least had it and it had always slowly progressed.

I DO have a biochemical imbalance or sensitivity. Meaning I do need medication to stabilize it and have to watch my diet. It affects my moods unfortunately. So I hav to eat regularly and healthy and I'm usually fine. It's kinda funny though because  if I don't eat something it's like "instant bitch" and now all my friends understand so they will just kinda smile and say, "Hey Gina, maybe you should go eat something."

I don't really know if it's an actual mental illness. I've seen all the counsellors and psychologists growing up (thanks mom) and I'm apparently 'normal'.

It probably was bit of one because there was a time I was on a self destructive path. There was this guy (always how it is) and I really liked him. I changed myself a bit to fit his standards more.  He liked to party. So we were always out drinking. It was even before I was legal by American standards. If kids want to drink, they will find a way. Then when I was legal we were at clubs constantly. All that alcohol definitely was no good for that chemical imbalance thing I have going on. It affected my mood greatly. I was up and down.

Then he cheated on me. I kinda had an idea and ignored it.  Then I had no choice but to face it.  And it kinda made me spiral. It was hard to get off that path. But I a managed. Took awhile. But I've cut that from my life and I think I have grown up.

I actually look at my readings from the past and cringe. It was done in an immature way. Not saying I'm not backing what I wrote but it could have been delivered better. Can't change that now though.

But I would like to point out my accuracy LOL.

Okay. So I flat out said Andrej Pejic was transgendered and I got so much smack over that. OMG. And now look. He has since come out as a woman. So HA!

And only on my tumblr but I did say Tokio Hotel was gonna have a world your and well...need I say more?

And speaking of which. There's some stuff I need to stay regarding Tokio Hotel and Bill in particular.

How I began doing those readings was my friends testing me out. I was starting to try to test my psychicness and my friends were helping me out. My one friend was a HUGE Tokio Hotel fan. She suggested the band and about Bill in particular. My other friends made other suggestions and we all put them in a hat and randomly chose bin pretty sure that one fan friend of mine rigged it LOL

Tokio hotel was chosen. And I did the reading. And fr some fucked up reason we all thought it would be fun to document it on a blog. Because we are so smart.

It's not that I regret doing so but in a way I think I did it wrong. The manner and how I wrote it all out. Not to mention it subjected me to some crazies. Not afraid to call some of you out. Some of you are crazy LOL.

I have had to deal with so many people who were so disillusioned and then got angry because I broke their fantasy with reality. Think about it though. The chance of any of you being a soulmate of theirs is so tiny it's laughable. Sorry to be harsh but have to say it. But it's also your choice to believe me. If you want to continue to live in your fantasy world go right ahead. It doesnt affect me any. Just you.

The only reason why I have continued to do the readings for them is because one, it's what I'm known for and two, because you all ask the same questions. So I out it on a blog because it's requested.  But I almost feel like I disrespect the band by doing it. Make  sense? At first I thought I was helping. Letting a few fans know ahead of time that , hey he will one day have someone. Get used to the idea.

But now I'm like.  "Would he actually like to have this out there?" I'm almost leaning towards no.  Like if he has seen this blog and checks up on it, I bet he's  probably like, "bitch I don't like you. Tell al my secrets. What's wrong wit chu?" LOL!

It's just a weird thought.

I will ask though that when Bill does find his soulmate that you try to be respectful. If you are a true fan and truly care you will. I understand if you have a celebrity crush and you feel some jealousy. I get that. I feel jealousy towards Jensen Ackels wife so I get the feeling. But you should really let it go an be happy for him.

The poor girl doesn't need death threats. I'm almost certain a few girls with a few screws loose will or will want to. How sad. But if that were to happen I'm guessing she would face it with grace. It's almost like she accepts it as a factor. Like she knows it comes with being his partner. She won't enjoy it but accepts it. It won't scare her so that's a bonus. It will make her sad because hey, girls will threaten to kill her it tell her they wish she would die. I don't think anyone would be happy about tat. But she will be able to handle it because she's had a hard life. She knows how to cope. She had had to deal with a lot of situations. I'm hearing family situations. Everyone's families are crazy but her is of the unhealthy variety. Bill will bring her happiness. She's not messed up by any means. It's just she is alone and fixing other people's problems and is forgetting herself. On the outside everything looks great. Because I'm being shown a closed door. That means  it's a different story behind. She's going through a huge transition. She's terrified. She's alone. It's weird. But you know a boxing ring? And how boxers have coaches behind them in their corner? Well it's almost like she is in the ring alone with no on in her corner. It's also almost like she wishes someone would come rescue her so she can get away. Like I said. She's alone in this and wishes she wasn't. It's sad but she's managing and have to admire that.

She may be unhappy now but once she completes this transition it will be so different for her. She will start being truly happy and then in a better place for when she meets Bill. Meeting him will skyrocket it for her though. She will be glowing with it. They are good for eachother. Wasn't planning on saying any of this about her LOL. But it came out so must be a reason?

And Tom. It's weird. He has a chance for a life partner but it's almost like he doesn't want it or he thinks it's not for him. It's not a soulmate but still a life partner. Like a close second to a soulmate. But he that's his choice. I have said what I have seen for a possibility for him. He may very well be like, "No, I shall be a stud for the rest of my life!" But to also point out, he will not be a "spring chicken" (that's the saying right?) forever. He's already twenty five. Only five more years until he's the big 30. You know? And like it's no longer cool to have one night stands when you re that old LOL. Yes it's different when you are in your early twenties. It's acceptable then. But when you're old and doing that I almost want to say there's something wrong. And he may be lonely and want to settle down. He won't have the same mind set he has now then. His choice though.

And just to clarify. I'm actually not that big of a fan of Tokio Hotel. Weird right? But it's true. I like maybe three songs. Monsoon. In your shadow I can shine. And that new one where they have sex with everyone on screen LOl. Jokes but you know which one I mean :p

And I also don't watch any interviews so please stop asking about certain interviews because I will not have seen it. I also won't find it just to understand what you mean. I just have better things to do with my time. Like eat cheese.

And there may be things I shouldn't have disclosed. Like the drinking and drugs LOL but also it shows they are human. I mean I have done my share of partying like I said earlier. I have smoked weed and have popped ecstasy on occasion at a party with friends. Not proud of it but I've done it. So have they. They are human. I'm sure they sleep and eat. I'm sure they use the bathroom. They probably even do number two! Like holy shit! (Literally). I'm sure they fart to. They are human and they will make mistakes like humans. So like then I get messages and how some of to make them sound like gods and like they are on a pedestal. Some of you worship these boys. And it's nearly unhealthy. What will you do when they make a mistake like anyone else and it's in the media?

Like what if Tom (sorry to pick on you Tom) was in a relationship but was found out to be cheating on her? He would have done something a lot of jerks have done but it's amplified because he is famous. For some of you it's like he can do no wrong even though to some of you he is the "bad boy" of the band. Like that would devestate some of you and your image of him would be shattered. So get used to the fact he's human and not perfect.

And like Bill (yes have to pick on him now. Must be fair LOL) had a TMZ moments and caused hell because he was hammered. Drunk off his ass. One time thing but it hit the tabloids? Some of you would have kittens. Your angel Bill doing something like that?! No! It mustn't be true! Because he's Bill or Tokio Hotel! You all don't even consider he's just a guy and made a mistake and has no privacy. Lots of young guys get hammered. It's almost like a rights of passage.

All I'm trying to say is, and I'm hoping you are understanding is, that maybe I should have kept that to myself. But at the same time I don't regret it because it's showing they are human.  And to maybe understand that. Because it's not really healthy to have them on a pedestal. So maybe you should stop venting about them going to strip clubs and stuff. It's a strip club. Not a brothel. Relax and chill LOL.

So I think I'm going to back off the Tokio Hotel readings now. Let it all play out. You can still ask questions but I'll only answer one in my email. Have to keep it fair

Now have a good day night whatever and respect.